We have a weird relationship. You and I.
You’re not very likable at times. You
know? But other times, I can’t praise you enough.
You are a little crazy. And you drive me crazy
too with all the over thinking you do. These are the times I wish I could shut
you off. But, I do realize that all this over thinking of yours is what
prepares me for everything I’d ever have to face. And that’s when I want to
thank you. And pamper you.
I also don’t like the fact that you doubt
yourself sometimes and think you’re not worthy of the things you get. I hope
you understand someday that nothing was given to you for free and you worked
for those things to be there in your life.
I know you feel like it’s rare when you’re
anybody’s first choice for anything. But I think I’ve told you enough that when
people do make a choice to choose you, they don’t regret it one bit. And
hopefully someday you’ll learn that your worth wasn’t based on people’s
choices.
To be honest, even I doubt you sometimes. Sorry
that I do. But I am grateful for the fact that you’ve learnt to rise beyond
doubts and pull through everything like a little star.
You don’t cry a lot, do you? For the things that
hurt you? I don’t know how you make it, but I admire how you deal with the
times when you’re hurting.
Oh and also, I love how you don’t shy away from
appreciating when you see something beautiful. And I hope you know you deserve
the appreciation you get too.
I have to tell you though, you’re terrible at
telling people how you feel. But I think it is pretty great how you prove your
feelings by your actions.
You see this pattern?
Me telling you
the things I don’t like very much about you and the very next moment
appreciating what I completely love about you?
We have a weird relationship. You and I.
Now the “you” here is me.
It’s I, Me, who has a weird relationship with myself.
And I don’t know me sometimes. I am not perfect
and neither is my relationship with myself. But I’ve certainly learnt to see
the good and the bad, both, in me. It’s not perfect, but I still do love it.
Is that okay?
I hope it is.